oh yes but of course .. the one day i`ve been tryign so hard not to think about is coming up so quickly . the 3 month anniversary . yeah but foreals it seems HELLA longer haha . i know it won`t be as bad as i thought it would be though .. because i`ve learned to just deal with it and understand that there`s nothing i can do about this whole situation .. but just try my hardest to be patient .. and keep my head up . well all i have to say is that this boy drives me crazy . as you MAY be able to tell .. i love minh to the fuckin max . just those like 4 minute phone calls .. and i`m already happy . knowing he`s mine just makes me happy . i`m glad to have him because he`s made me stronger and brought out the best in me . i miss him like fucking crazy . like how a fat kid would miss food if you made him fast for a long ass time hahah . i know i probably won`t be able to tell minh all this shit on time for the real day, so ima just post it up in here early so maybe some day he`ll see ;] smart huh ?! yes i know i`m fuckin good . i`m done with playing those stupid games with boys .. and making the same dumbass mistakes over and over again . someone even told me once, i go through boys like how people change their underwear . haha well okay, that wasn`t necessarily true .. but it seemed like it . i always tried so hard to make things last, but it never seemed to work. but this time, it`s different ... i`m not letting this one go . i want it to last . i`m sure .. i really love this boy . i trust that he will do the same too . i respect that he waited for so long .. and dealt with my shit and yet still manages to love me =] it sucks not being able to see him, and have the chance to tell it all to his face . i like how we`re clossee ass friends too .. he`s not just my boyfriend .. he`s someone i won`t be ashamed to act like a  retard around . he`s my lover &friend ;] he`s the reason i smile .. what keeps me going through the whole day . the first thing i think about when i wake up .. and the last before i go to sleep . of course, at times, especially when we weren`t together, our relationship wasn`t perfect . we made mistakes, i even felt like walking away from it all, and not willing to take a second chance .. i just wanted to give up . but for some reason i just couldn`t . which is why i took it so slow .. i wanted to make sure it was all right before we took it any further . i love him for that . i love him for waiting . i love him .. for him . he waited for me .. so i`ll wait for him . i just .. "want to shout it on top of a mountain" that i love minh HAHah hella corny . GOSh .. haha why do i gotta bust out this line everytime .. there`s just so much i have to say but i can`t explain it in words . this boyy .. it`s all hella .. indescribable or might i say undefined hahah [UAB BIOOTCHh] just something about him .. continues to drive me crazy everyday .

CHEEESEEEEETAstic .. f`sho ;]

even though i don`t feel like blogging i needa write this down before i lose my way of thought .. or whatever it`s called .

hmMm i was reading through some of my old blogs and it got me kinda thinking about what has happened lately .. and i realized it`s like i`ve been through hell . even though to you guys it seems like nothing , and for those of you that i tell like almost everything .. [yes even you bao] there`s a LOT more to it .. and you won`t really know exactly how it really was for me unless you went through EXACTLY what i did . even if i did explain it to you . my life right now is just like amazingly better .. and has never been better .. i just can`t get over it lol . i can`t stop saying it . i wanna thank minh toO .. for being patient with me and understanding i wanted to be careful .. and make sure it was all right before we got together, cuz i was scared it would turn out just like my past . i`m like .. SO glad we did go through though.. you`re like my happinesss .. you helped me see life ina whole new way . wow how fuckin cheesey hahaha but it`s true .

HAPPY CHRiSTMAS EVE BiTCHEs =]

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live everyday to the fullest bitches . live everyday like it`s your last .

i`m bored .

this is the re - make of the letter to andrew .. the i love letter .. "malyssa version"

i love .. pink , "licious", minh , "hot summer nights" , summertime itself, dancing , hugs, kissESssss =] , sneezing, piggy back rides, going to parks, "just chiiiilling", dancing, getting letters, laughing, putting on clothes right out from the dryer, ben &jerry`s ice cream, those chips i eat with andrew haha. i love kisses on the cheek and wehn my legs are soft =D i love WATEr, jamba juice, chocolate chip cookies, starbucks frappucinos, taking retarded pictures, WRESTLiNGGGg roaRR !! MY CHAPSTiCK . seeing people smile, christmas, simple things in life .. looking at the stars, doggieess, partyinGg, big jackets, chad michael murray, baskin robbins ice cream cake, ice cream cake, strawberry shortcake ice cream [i`ll try to stop naming food now because this could go on forever], long car rides at night, the smell of scotch tape, shiny scotch tape, bubble baths, wehn a guy doesn`t do his hair and i can run my hands through it =] hahaha i love sniffing vicks vapo-rub, eating, eye drops, my flat iron, my blankey luby, hot tubs, my nigguh toanathan, tater tots [oops that`s food ..], moan with a t from hill, guys` with nice abs or arms haha, USHEr`s fuckign sexy ass body yumm . putting on lotion .. not in the dirty way, chucks, beaches, being warm, the feel of sand, having tears of joy, having no pimples, unwrapping gifts, the night time, tickling people .. no don`t tickle me . i love being drama free, when people serenade me with beautiful love songs ;] .. jevin .. hahah , looking at the skyyy, dressing up in othere peoples` clothes, tapioca, my father banhbao [happy ? i didn`t just put bao .. haha], hugging tall people, hot showers, wearing wife beaters, not getting in trouble, wearing jerseys, or big shirts, biting people, doing my "power punches", or double time power punches, the smell of clean laundry, forever 21, sleeping, my homies, being held from behinddd .. i dunno why lol, "spooning" , teddy bearrrss, BUiLD A BEARr !! i love uhMm .. polaroid pictures, dimples, being happy, putting make up on guys, the smell of gasoline, the smell after you vaccuum a place and a lotttt more that i can`t put into words AANdd stuff i can`t think of right now ALSo other things that may be toO cheesey for you haha .

look what i foundd .. the day before i got married to minh .. haha